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[15 Aug 2006|03:58pm] |
I don't think I really like livejournal anymore. Not because of anything other then its faster to do it while Im on myspace. I unfortunatly don't have enough time to keep up with everyones entries anymore :( It stinks.
So, as for whats going on in Allie Alley. I am done with Friendly's for the summer and will be back on Vacations. The last week of the pool is this week as well. Not to much new in that department. I got my hair done today and I leave for school early saturday morning. I still dont know how I am paying for shcool but it will happen. I have faith.
ANything else.......oh, tonight is my last night of Rugby with the Worcester Shamrocks :( Hopefully that will turn out okay. I guess thats really it for now. Peace out. If you need me write me direct at bdfbeauty@yahoo.com
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[24 Jul 2006|10:13pm] |
So, I haven't written on here in forever and myspace won't load. SO events events that I don't feel like writing super in depth about.
I might be moving to Florida....well, sort of. My mom might be moving to Florida and then I guess Ill just be living at school all the time. Who knows.
Rugby. This weekend was my last weekend tournament playing with the Shamrocks. There might be one more the first week of August but it would be going to a tournament and drinking, not playing and drinking. Thats okay. I guess, I really love playing with them though. I am super addicted to Rugby. Its amazing. Im quite surprised I didn't get hung over on sunday morning. I drank three days in a row. Friday wasn't bad, Saturday....well its a rugby day and we drink like its water after games, sunday was just dispersed beers in ptown. I will be on Pied Bars website :) This woman offered to buy us shots too :) Got love drunk crazy lesbians by three in the afternoon. I only had one, no two. Saturday I was smashed though. I had beer and liquor and beer...captain, long island iced teas, coors light, bud ligh, something from a pitcher, good stuff. Whatevs. We almost got kicked out of our campground too. They came over and were like pack your shit and leave to all us drunken people. we were like uhhhh, hmmm. Didn't really say anything and dispersed. He also told us the cops were waiting for us at the gate. LOL. Denise goes, "Yeah, why not kick us out so we can drive drunk and hit a few campers on the way." loud enough so he could hear. He didn't come back though, all he needed to do was give us a warning. Anyway thats all for now, more to come later.
Yay 13hr a day work days on mon and weds. NOT!
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[08 Jul 2006|01:04am] |
I'm kind of wondering what is wrong with me. I'm starting to get turned off my hetero sex. Hmm. I don't know. I feel like it might just be me looking for answers :/ this sucks. Mens genitailia grosses me out, my sister says thats normal. Then again she doesnt understand why I like girls...
Speaking of girls...Cola had the pepper spray trainging this week, I wonder how that went. I know I havent written in here for a while so I don't assume you know who I am talking about. Anyway, she is a friend of one of the girls on the Rugby team I play for in worcester. I like her a lot. I want to get to know her and talk to her but I would have to talk to someone on the team to get her number or anything. I just can't get her out of my head, and she likes Skid Row. How amazing is that? *sigh* she is older then me, no problem with me. When we were talking she was all "SO hwy have you been flirtin with me all night?" ::insert chatter:: "It doesn't matter, you like that italian girl who can cook." "You are so young that doesn't mean anything, I'm not with her" Is this a line? Then later she said I'm not attractive, not in so many words. I'm starting to think the most unattractice quality in me is that I think I am unattrive and worthless. I need to work on that.
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[30 Jun 2006|07:03pm] |
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Okay, I can't take summer anymore. I love Rugby, that I don't wnat to end but being in this house I do, being aorund these people, I do. I love Kayla, love her but I can't stand being so miserable here. Kayla and Rugby are what is keeping me sane, if you can call it that. *cries* I just want to go back to school, I can't take these feelings anymore :( :( :(
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[14 Jun 2006|11:04am] |
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I feel so fullfilled and complete now! I went to the Worcester Shamrocks practice last night and I oculd have even played in a game this weekend! I didn't thought because I haven't been in Rugby long and they don't do tackling drills but they do do the new zeland square. I am so unbelievably happy. There was about twenty girls and one girl was super cute and her name is Julia, she looks exactly like meadow but with dark hair and eyes. Such a sweetheart! Anyway, thats all for now, it was just too amazingfor words!
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[02 Jun 2006|12:03pm] |
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I'm really honestly starting to feel that if I pull away from people I can't get hurt. I'm figurin it maybe a good idea.
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[31 May 2006|10:46pm] |
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I know that this is really selfish of me. For some reason right now I can't help but feel alone. It sucks because I don't have my license so it is obviously hard for me to go visit other people. The thing that is making me sad is that a lot of my friends are planning road trips to see other friends and they all have there license but no one is coming to/ speaking of visiting me. Thats so friggin selfish and I hate it but when you have doubt and then that it just makes you wonder. I hate being in Worcester. I hate it. I want to be at school, with friends, working and taking classes. Hopefully working will change things...hopefully.
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[28 May 2006|04:10pm] |
Update: Kayla and I are lesbian lovers who had sex on the beach in Vermont and then got matching tattoos.
lol. So here Uncle Drew says, he is hilarious, he also pointed out my hikki. Oh man. Anyways yeah thats it but it was hilarious so I HAD to ass it.
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| Hey ya'll |
[28 May 2006|04:06pm] |
I haven't written in here in a while. I am just writing because I got a job yesturday and I start tomorrow! Well orientation, which is only tomorrow. I hate reg. sneakers. I especially dislike reg. black sneakers but if thats what will bring in money all is well. So anyway, it seems that all the places that I am working I owuld have to wear red, so I have to wear red. Im going to be working the fountain at Friendly's until they move me up to a server. The Manager, Mary-Pat said that shouldn't be long. Anyway thats it for now because my stomach hurts. Much love to everyone.
<3
aLLIE
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[18 May 2006|10:15pm] |
One can be in such a great mood and nothing can externaly change but something changes internaly and then you are so super depressed and start crying. Anyone else feel like that sometimes? I hate it.
How I miss school :(
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| Percrastinated on the entry but now its time |
[17 May 2006|09:47pm] |
So, I've decided I dont care. I was nervous but now I am not. That is all on that topic.
I am soooooooooo super excited that Ali is coming to visit in TWO DAYS! We are going to a dance on friday night that is being put on by my old work. Well, semi still my work but I don't get paid so I duno, that is under discussion on whether it is a job or not. Eeeps, I am soooooo excited. I hope Fawn and Steve come visit soon!!!! Growl. lol. Jk Im just really hyper. Kidding about the growling, I just want them to come. I miss GMC and Rugby, I NEED Rugby. Until I can I guess Ill settle for running at the track and kicking by myself. Oh well. They end of my happy rant.
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[15 May 2006|10:54pm] |
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Random babbling don't read if you don't want to I wont be offended......
Things I could go for right now....
my baby blanket :( its mixed in with my school stuff somewhere
mopefest
labrynth
booze
a car, and license so I could leave here
money for renting an apt
pot
sleeping meds
GMC...
gmc friends.
A teddy bear :(
headphones to shut out the fucking shit Ive been listening to in this house
a stick to beat ex's away with
a punching bag
a good cuddle
security as I feel unsafe (not to myself just in general)
loud music
a job
an escape.
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[07 May 2006|04:23pm] |
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So it's that time. Everyone will be spliting up for the summer. I guess I'm excited but I dont want to leave here or any of my friends. I have friends here, I have good friends here, really good friends. I hate not being able to see them at meals or be here to make sure they are okay. Hmm it makes me feel like crap. One more final to go, then a recoring and then home for three months. A vast majority of my friends will be leaving tomorrow, Geoff left today. *sigh* Where did all the time go?
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[03 May 2006|06:31am] |
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Can everybody get out of the hospital now, please?
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[02 May 2006|05:54pm] |
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So many people are starting to piss me off like crazy, I cant friggin take it! So now its just me and Jack Johnson. Arrrggggyyyyle!
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[28 Apr 2006|11:54pm] |
I love this station its amazing, this song is wicked good.
You can look but you can't touch
I don't think I like you much
Heaven knows what a girl can do
Heaven knows what you've got to prove
I think I'm paranoid and complicated
I think I'm paranoid, manipulate it
Bend me break me
Anyway You need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you
I fall down just to give you a thrill
Prop me up with another pill
If I should fail, if I should fold
I nailed my faith to the sticking pole
I think I'm paranoid, manipulate it
I think I'm paranoid, too complicated
Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you
I think I'm paranoid
I think I'm paranoid
Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you
Steal me, deal me, anyway you heal me
Maim me, tame me, you can never change me
Love me, like me, come ahead and fight me
Please me, tease me, go ahead and leave me
Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's alright
Bend me break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's alright
By:Scala
I'm praying for you, please don't die.
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[28 Apr 2006|06:53pm] |
Hopefully this doesnt hatch into a virus or something.
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[21 Apr 2006|09:39am] |
Saturday at 11am and 4pm Men's and Women's Rugby Tournament at Castleton! Yay Allies First game! (sorry Time I couldn't resist, good luck at your game!)
1::Name: Allison
2::Single or Taken: Single
4::Siblings: 3
5::eye color: brown
6::Shoe size: 7 1/2, 6 1/2 cleats
7::Height: 5'2
.8::Innie or Outie: innie
9::Righty or lefty: righty
10::Can you make a dollar in change right now: No, all my change went to the Mile of Change for Unicef
11::Who is your closest friend: ________
12::Do you have a BF or GF: no
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Favorite...
13::Kind of pants: sweat pants or black pants
14::Number: 13
15::Animal: orca's
16::Drink: lowfat milk, water
17::Sport: eeps, Figure Skating and Rugby
18::Month: April
19::Juice: Cranapple
20::Breakfast: at the moment, Waffles
21::Cartoon character: hmm, I dunno. Spinelli?
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Have You Ever...
22::Given anyone a bath?: A dog...
23::Smoked?: Yes
24::Bungee Jumped?: NO
25::Made yourself throw-up?: >.<
26::Put your tongue on a frozen pole: Yea
27::Loved someone so much it made you cry?: It's Brandy hehe, yes
28::Broken a bone: Nope
28::Played truth or dare: Yes
29::Been in a police car: Maybe in like 3rd grade visiting the station, prolly the same
30::Been on a plane: Yes last month! (and before then lol)
31::Came close to dying: Close
32::Been in a sauna: Yup!
33::Been in a hot tub: Yeaaa
34::Swam in the ocean: Yes!
35::Fell asleep in school: Oh man...:(
36::Ran away?: sort of
37::Broken someone's heart: Unfortunatly probably
38::Cried when someone died: I wouldn't call it cry, it was more like an ocean pouring out of my eyes
39::Cried in school: Yes
40::Fell off your chair: I dont remember
41::Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call? Yes
42::Saved AIM convos: Yeah
43::Made out with just a friend? Yeah, I didn't think it was just a friend though :(
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What is...
45::Your good luck charm?:My red sports bra and dog tags
46::Best song you ever heard: Not a clue, thats way to hard
47::What's your room like: At the moment messy but after tomorrow it should be back to its spotless shape, or maybe by this afternoon
48::What is beside you?: Playscripts, blue, books, postcards, notebooks, magazine, alarm clock...
49::Last thing you ate: Fruit this morning
50::What kind of shampoo do you use?: Suave
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Ever Had...
51::Chicken pox: Yeah
52::Sore Throat: Yeah
53::Stitches: No
54::Broken nose: No
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Do You...
55::Believe in love at first sight: Yes
56::Like picnics: If someone brought me on a picnic I would be the happiest girl in the world
57::Like school: I love my school.
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Questions:
59::Who was the last person you called: My mom
60::Who was the last person you slow danced with?: to long ago to remember
61::Who makes you smile: Members of the Rugby team, mostly Steve, Fawn and Kirsten. Malik and Wayne are pretty cool to, but they don't know they make me smile.
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Who?
62::Did you last yell at: Do Rugby calls count?
63::Broke your heart: Tim...sorry
64::Told you they loved you? My mom or Kirsten hehe
65::Who's your loudest friend?: Kirsten or Steve maybe
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66::Do you like filling these out: Sometimes
67::Do you wear contact lenses or glasses: No
68::Do you get along with your family: Yeah, most of the time
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Final Questions:
69::What are you listening to right now?: Cars from town
70::What did you do yesterday?: Rugby 6-7:30 am, homework, class 9:30-12:00, work 12:00-1:00, Rugby cut outs, choir 4:00-5:00, practice 6:00- 9:00pm BED
71::Gotten any awards: Yes, for ROTC, Volleyball, dance and cheerleading
72::What car do you wish to have: Civic, Escapse, or Crusier
73::Where do you want to get married?: the place my partner and I choose
74::Good driver?: Eh...I'm alright
75:: Good singer?: I guess
76::Have a lava lamp?: I did
77::How many remote controls are in your house?: 4?
78::Are you down to fuck a *G*: I don't know what that means
79::When did you last shower? 10 minutes ago
80::Scary or Funny Movies: Depends on my mood
81::Chocolate or Vanilla: neither
82::WHAT WOULD YOU DO FOR A KLONDIKE BAR?: I'd Do Anything...
83::Skiing or Boarding: Boarding
84::Summer or winter?: Spring
85::Silver or Gold?: Silver
86::Sprite or 7up: Sprite
87. Coffee or Tea: Coffee
88::Phone or in person: In Person
89::Are you oldest, middle, youngest out of your sibilings? Youngest
90::Indoor or outdoor: outdoor
91::Diamond or pearl: neither
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Today did you:
92::Talk to someone you liked: sort of
93::Buy something: Nope
94::Get sick: yes
95::Sing: not yet
96::Talk to an ex: yes, shes on my team
97::Miss someone: yessssss
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Last person who:
98::Saw you cry: Meg unless people notice at practice and I dont realize
99::Made you cry: family
100::Went to the movies with: DeJay, who is coming up today!!!
101::You went to the mall with: I forgot um, Kayla
102::Ever been in a fight with your pet: Yes
103::Been to California: Yes
104::Been to Mexico: No
105::Been to Canada: Not yet
106::Been to Europe: YES!!!!!!
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Random.....
107::Do you have a crush on someone: Yeah :-D
108::Best feeling in the world: hehe Rugby bruises, feeling wanted
109::Worst feeling in the world: Disapointment, as in "I'm disapointed with you"
110::Future kids' names: Taylor Alexis, Dominick Matthew
111::Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: More then one
112::What's under your bed: crap
113::Favorite sports to watch: Rugby, Figure Skating, Gymnastics, Cheerleading
114::Favorite Location: Caernof,Cymru(wales)
116::What are you scared of? a lot of things
117::Who do you really hate?: I dont
118::Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?: duh
119::Have you ever cried: yea
120::Are you lonely right now: Nope
121::Song that's stuck in your head right now?: Have you ever been low, have you ever had a friend thats let you down....
22::Have you ever played strip poker: Yea lol right Gwen? I gave up after a while
123::Have you ever been on radio/TV: Both in Wales!
124::Have you ever been in a mosh-pit: sort of
125::Ever liked someone but thought they never noticed you? Yeah..
127::Your Favorite Food? Watermelon, Green Beans!
128::Are you to shy to ask someone out?: Yea, most of the time
129::Hugs or Kisses?: LOOOOOOONG HUGS
130::Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? butter or plain
131::Dogs or Cats?: Both
132::Have you ever fired a gun?: what kind?
133::How many pillows do you sleep with?: 2 to 3
134::Do you hate immature people? i dont hat the person but what they do....
135::Who are you missing right now?
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
LENNY. I don't know why it should.
(Crimes of the Heart)
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you hit?
Books and theraputic ice
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Charmed *shrugs*
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
10:11, 10:10
5. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Cars and doors
6. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Around 8 for Practice
7. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Other peoples journals
8. What are you wearing?
A melon colored towel
9. Did you dream last night?
Yea and it was sweet...sweeter if it were true
10. When did you last laugh?
Last night at practice
11. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Tapestrees and posters (I know its not spelled right)
12. Seen anything weird lately?
uh huh
13. What do you think of this quiz?
I dunno...passes time
14. What is the last film you saw?
DUnno
15. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
I would give it away after paying for my college and my sisters college loans and my mom as she is now in college again and some to the alzheimers foundation, the rest to a childrens shelter
16. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I'm a feirce Ruby player
17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt
or politics, what would you do?
Dunno
18. Do you like to dance:
Yea.
19. George Bush:
Jerk.
20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Taylor
21. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Dominick
22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
YES
23. 4 people who must also do this in THEIR journal:
Second Sarah's thought that no one will. Buttt...Steve, Meg, Mia, Gwen
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I'm in the city, when can I go home?
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